Going into Spring Break, I was very uneasy. The rise of COVID-19 and the possibility of not coming back to campus after spring break worried me. The idea of being in quarantine, isolated with no human interaction other than interacting with the people in my house was terrifying. The saying “an idle mind is the devil’s playground” kept replaying in my head. In my recent blog, I talked about my battle with depression. God healed and delivered me from that, but I was scared my depression would resurface from the idea of being in the house, not being able to go anywhere for an unforeseeable amount of time. I was also very anxious because I was still in the process of changing my major and this was my last chance to get into Krannert. So many thoughts ran through my head, but I took the time to look at this from a spiritual perspective. I had to think about why God was allowing this to happen.
My favorite scripture is Jeremiah 29:11, “For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” Everything that is happening is predestined by God. He knew this was going to happen. This is God’s way of saying, “can you hear me now?” I had to remind myself of this throughout this entire quarantine.
I originally came to Purdue wanting to major in pharmacy. After my freshman year, I decided to change my major. However, I ended my freshman year with a very low GPA and was on academic probation. I wanted to change my major to accounting within the Krannert School of Management, but I needed a certain GPA in order to do that. Starting my sophomore year, I retook various classes and worked on getting my GPA to where it needed to be, so I could officially change my major.
After spring break, it was time to get back in the books and prepare for finals. My anxiety was at an all-time high because everything was virtual, and I was retaking this final class that would allow me into the Krannert School of Management. Fast forward to finals week, I passed all my finals and I ended up with getting the grades I needed to officially change my major. These were the best grades I’ve received since being at Purdue and my GPA has increased tremendously since my freshman year. I only have 3 more semesters of college then I will be graduating.
What are my plans after college? Being a first-generation college student, I have no blueprint on how to navigate college. I had to figure things out on my own. I’m still not 100% sure what I want to do after college, but this quarantine has helped me figure that out. God is allowing me to be still in this time and to trust in Him. He knows the plans He has for me, I just have to trust Him. During this isolation, I have learned a lot about myself and where I want to be in life. I have been quiet for too long. I want to share my truth and encourage other young women with my testimony. I encourage all my Strong Sisters to do the same.
During this quarantine, I’ve learned that
1.) it’s okay to take some time to yourself and just work on YOU!
2.) Do things that make YOU happy. Another thing I’ve learned is that
3.) if you have a goal you want to achieve, just do it. Don’t wait.
4.) We all have a gift down on the inside of us, use that gift. Write that blog, start that business, share your story, whatever it is you aspire to do, do it now!